So I'm Gonna Try Torture Myself To Work


Okay, so, as you recall, I swapped this over to hiatus due to me not making any progress. However, I honestly hate myself for being useless at this when a ton of plot is already written in my head (and some in the code, you just can't see it). So, to combat my self-hate, I've gone on a more self-destructive but creative route. I've loaded up on coffee, oats (a boy's gotta have stog), got a new keyboard to make typing easier and my room is an alcoholic's delight. So I intend to let my insomnia win, infest my blood with lovely caffeine to compensate, munch on oats for survival and punch my liver if my depression tries get a hold of me (don't worry, my family is disturbingly resistant to booze, so I'm a professional pisshead). I've already drawn (if you can even call it that) some of Hamilton's first sex scene and an additional scene for the special (for day nine, ten or eleven, I haven't decided yet). I've gotten a few more plot points drawn out in my head too, such as what happens to various characters you don't date (there's as many sad results as there is happy).

I'm gonna try get every path up until day seven (the point the over-arcing plot kicks in). Also will try add a lore menu that slowly unlocks over time as you play, maybe a gallery, both disabled unless I get this stuff probably drawn out and all obviously (the lore menu might fuck up though). So, hopefully, the next time you hear from me I'll be cramming version 4.0 down your gullets and saying "EAT IT! EAT MY YAOI GOODNESS!!" (I'm willing to bet that's a line in a porn manga somewhere...).

I need to get this done. I've given up on way too many projects because of this stupid weak body of mine, but now I've got a variety of poisons and it will submit to my demands or, so help me God, I will unleash hell upon it!

So, yeah, that tag might be turned back to "In-Progress" soon. Hopefully before March, sooner if I'm lucky. Oh, and don't worry about me. I've survived worse. Hope to see you come a mega update!

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Opposite of it I took remedies to sleep because of insomnia. 

Had to much stuff in my head disturbing me. Still have some I just don't give it attention. 

A chat with my cousin helped me so I decided to focus in the tasks I have to do.  In place of down in sadness.

I need a week forcing my brain in good thinks to do it.

I have a pile of projects I had stoped too but nothing serious. 

Just focusing in organizing my life to focus in my profession area.

Please don't. You may say you've survived worse, but I don't care. NO ONE should ever have to do this to themselves. Take your time. I'm in a similar state, been jobless for over a year after being fired unfairly, and severely depressed to the point that I very well might die from lack of care for my body, all while not even being 21. One thing I can say, is that hurting yourself like this solves absolutely nothing. PLEASE put your own needs first. PLEASE.